Well, I've finally realized that it's ok if nothing exists outside of interpretation. I've learned that postmodernism is not some way of isolating oneself, but instead, a way to form a community. I am so relieved that deconstruction doesn't destroy everything, but allows marginalized voices to be heard. And I am at peace now that I realize that love is not just a romantic or even intense feeling, but something that can be very quiet and subtle. I may be at peace with God for now, but I know these answers could very well dissolve and form more questions. But that's ok. It's much better that way. I am now a bit more willing to take responsibility for who I am and what i believe in.